Another Day, Another Diaper....

My day always begins the same way. Coffee and Cartoons. Not a bad thing, not at all. Usually around this time of the morning i'm thinking about all the things i SHOULD do, but instead i sit, clean or play with a doodle. I do keep busy, i mean i have a VERY active 2 year old, but i feel like i should utilize my time a little better. With that said let me explain. Its been about a year since i have started being more active and going to Zumba twice a week with Aunt Gaye but aside from my gym attempts at the beginning of the year i have not been able to succeed with my goal of losing 20 lbs. I was doing perty well and at one point was down 12 lbs. but i think the goodies and stress got the best of me and currently i have gained it all back BUT 2lbs. Right now i have a very ambitious goal of being 130 by the time Laz gets home from basic. I'm sure he will be quite the stud when he gets home from all the activity and lack of time to do anything other than work out; It would be nice for him to come home to a wife that is just as fit as he is.

Ok here is where it gets ugly. I have a few people in my life who do a bit of:

sab·o·tage

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noun

any undermining of a cause. 

I know its out of love and i have zero self control so its just an awful combination. Just to vent a little, sorry Kel, but seriously you have told me on numerous occasions how you eat ice cream and are still losing weight! Arg, if i LOOK at ice cream i gain a pound and it makes me want to scream.(...for ice cream!) It kind of takes me back to when i worked with my mom, when she actually spoke to me. She would make me lunch EVERY day, it was wonderful and tasty but calorie laden and caused weight gain (granted i was like 20 years old and only got up to about 135 but that was quite a bit considering i was 125 when i started at Exel.) One day i asked her to please not bring me lunch anymore i want to try and lose weight....boy was that ever a task and a half. You have to understand that my mother is the thinnest women i know and stubbed her nose at my new healthy choices instead of being supportive....story of my life, but that's another post!

Ok now that i'm done with my tangent, basically what i'm getting at is the fact that i really need to work on my self control, avoid situations that will cause me to make bad food choices and try to be active out side of Zumba. 

I keep thinking that the food choices will be a bit easier once Laz leaves because he is a brownie monster and does enjoy dessert, as do i, but even the days i could go without he seems to share with me...As for working out after he leaves is a different story. My gym does have free child care while you do you thang but i am an over protective mother with issues with leaving him with people i don't know....i know my mother in law is shaking her head if shes reading this...i cant help it, it gives me anxiety, which is why i'm a stay at home mommy. Either way i'm sure ill figure something out, i DO have a very extensive collection of DVDs and the Wii workouts that can keep me busy. Ok, now that all of that is said and everyone is feeling motivated....